WE ARE X!!!



UPDATE: December 6, 2008
** Higher bitrate (320kbit) upload for::
Dope HEADz ~ 2002-07-24 Planet of the Dope

UPDATE: December 9, 2008
** Higher bitrate (320kbit) upload for::
Loudness ~ 1992-06-10 Loudness
Ra:IN ~ 2006-03-08 Before the Siren

UPDATE: December 10, 2008
** Higher bitrate (320kbit) upload for::
Pata ~ 1995-07-05 Raised on Rock
** New upload::
P.A.F. ~ 1998-03-25 Patent Applied For

All files uploaded to MediaFire in MP3 format = AUDIO only. Compression done with WinRar.

MANY THANKS TO: pixychild (for our mutual X love, Zilch, hide with Spread Beaver and many other things <3), nivani (for Yoshiki Selection), ttrin (for having the most X related stuff in one place I've ever seen O_O), Lucs (for Metal Box), Arucard (for P.A.F. and many other Pata's and Taiji's solo), Chris aka jigokugal (for Ass in the... err.. Earth in the Dark), Merryweather aka 003chan (for pointing me to Taiji's, Pata's and Heath's solo), Sander aka Hypno (for Toshi overload °_°), Osharewood aka Hollywood (for writing about Taiji so often that it annoyed me enough to download the albums and fall in love with this music). One BIG thank goes to X Radical Dreamers, because I wouldn't be able to build this MUSIC GALLERY without Radical Pan's uploads!! ^_^ THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN, DARLINGS!!!

!! Please, respect these musicians and remove the files from your computer within 24 hours. If you liked what you listened to, some of their work presented here is available at CDJapan and YesAsia. And what you can't find there, you could find at Ebay. !!

Please, comment when taking. ^_^

>>!some stuff is still under construction!<<
>>what's not here is probably not upploaded YET or I don't have it YET<<

( X JAPAN Studio Albums )
( X JAPAN Singles )

( TAIJI Sawada )
( Hiroshi HEATH Morie )
( HEATH & PATA )
( Tomoaki PATA Ishizuka )
( Toshimitsu TOSHI Deyama )
( Hideto HIDE Matsumoto )
( YOSHIKI Hayashi )

Lost in chaos
Now I want out
Or in if the chaos is all around

Lost in my mind
I am every day
To make me sane will cost a pay


Now this is me forcing myself to write. And to make sense if possible. I went nuts today with all my babbling I told Alix. Creepy, creepy... I couldn't sleep last night. My mind kept playing games with me from half 11 until half 3 in the morning!! Can you believe it?! 4 hours of lying in bed not being able to fall asleep! Millions of thoughts running through my head. And they all led from one shit to another.

It's all about scenarios. Many different and most of the time I win somehow. But I can never decide what action is better to take. To ignore or to be simply nice and behave as if nothing ever happened? Or being totally amazing to leave all standing in awe? I suppose the last one is the best. But who would believe it's me? That it's really meant? On the other hand, if being a bit of a fake can make me better in their eyes, why not to give it a try?

Ah well. But there are situations that don't end with my victory. Now you're going to question me about what I understand under victory. The answer: my pure satisfaction. That it is. Anyway, those other scenarios. When I'm completely ignored. Most likely to happen. How to accept that? The only option I see is to think of it as of a cowardly act for the ignorance pertains to cowards.

So I was a coward. Even in my eyes! I admit it. But it was an ignorance out of fun that gave me satisfaction. Short lived one, though.

I regret what I've done for I shouldn't have gone that far. I lowered myself and will not repeat the same mistake again. For unlike the others, I learn my lessons well and don't repeat my mistakes. Well, to a certain extent as I can't affect every simple situation happening around nor predict the future.

In those scenarios, there figures one other character who becomes a subject of an exploitation. And the whole plot comes simply out of my current anger and frustration about my situation. Now with the my situation I mean life. That it all seems to be heading from one shit to another. A downward spiral of my own with the knowledge of how far I could have gone already. If just something somewhere went differently.

Pondering about what I'd change in the past doesn't help for the past had happened. And even if I was given a time machine, I most likely wouldn't use it. To repeat some phases of my life again? No, thank you.

I've come to realize that sometimes forgetting can be worse than forgiving something really bad. Because when you forget, you're forgetting what you never forgave.

In oblivion is the fall.

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?
Nobody

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
Who was my first love?? O_o?

3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
Beer most likely... :)

4. What was your FIRST job?
leaflets...

5. What was your FIRST car?
none yet

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
Jan! ^^ that she's coming to World's End on Saturday! YAY!! <3

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
ME! o_o lol XD

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
I remember her but I don't remember her name... I think her first name was Maria.

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
lol wtf?

10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
Meiling... yeah, still best friends.. for about 15 years now!!

11. Where was your FIRST sleepover?
Meiling's! ^^

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
my roommate Monika

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
As far as I remember it was my mom's cousin's wedding...

14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
turned on my laptop...? Ok, I'm a NERD...

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
some shitty stuff I didn't have to pay for, oh lucky me...

16. FIRST tattoo?
none yet... but now I'm not sure if I want wings on my back or Twelve Shots on the Rocks album cover on my arm first! O_O Hanoi is winning so far tbh...

17. FIRST piercing?
ears when I was a lil kid...

18. FIRST foreign country you've been to?
Poland. very cheap back then..

19. FIRST movie you remember seeing in the theater?
Jurrasic Park II!!!!! :D

20. FIRST Detention you had?
never had any :P

21. What was the FIRST state you lived in?
Slovakia

22. If you had one wish. What would it be?
No more procrastination and laziness, thanks! But I'd probably wish to have as many wishes as I wanted to, haha. :P

23. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
play a guitar!

Can you help me a bit here? I'm not sure what job I should look for with all this:

Education:
University of Presov, Ul. 17 Novembra 1, Presov, Slovak republic
Faculty of Arts, Mass Media Studies – Bachelor's Degree
2005 – 2008

Eight-year high school, Trebisovska 12, Kosice, Slovak republic
Maturita – Final Exams:
Slovak Language and Literature – B level – Excellent (1)
English Language and Literature – A level – Excellent (1)
German Language and Literature – B level – Very Good (2)
Philosophy, Politics, Law - B level – Very Good (2)
Information Technology - B level – Excellent (1)
1997 - 2005

Other education:
Elementary art school, Kovacska 43, Kosice, Slovak Republic
Graphic department, creative visual arts
2002 - 2003
British Council, Kosice, Slovak Republic
Three months English course
2001
Elementary art school, Bernolakova 1, Kosice, Slovak Republic
Music department, flute
1996 - 1999
Elementary art school, Irkutska 1, Kosice, Slovak Republic
Graphic department, creative visual arts
1993 - 2001

Work Experience:
Tragus Holdings, Café Rouge, 45 – 46 Cannon Hill, Southgate, N14 6LH, London, UK
Bar staff: making drinks, bar cleaning, overall restaurant helping
July 2008 – June 2009
University student magazine KAIS, University of Presov in Presov, Slovak Republic
Layout designer and editor: graphics and layout coordinator, film reviews editor
November 2007 – June 2008
Bookshop Panta Rhei, Kosice, Slovak republic
Assistant: customer assistance, assistance with book and price tags manipulation, cleaning
October 2007 – June 2008
U. S. Steel, Kosice, Slovak Republic
Office work: filling in forms with a content of architectural building plans, digitizing constructional drawing documentation
June 2007 – September 2007
Slovak online magazine Fantazia Online
Orthography editor for film reviews
2006
S&D s.r.o. Bratislava PU Agency, Bratislava, Slovak Republic
Tourist guide and interpreter for British tourists
June – August 2006
Internet Café, Kosice, Slovak Republic
Administrative work, customer assistance, troubleshooting computers and internet connection, selling refreshments
June – September 2005

Additional skills:
Language skills:
Slovak – native
English – advanced
Czech – native level
German – GCSE level
Polish – passive understanding
French – basic

IT skills – user:
Overall computer and internet literacy with specific skills in text editing, typography and creating presentations (Microsoft Office Suite: Word, Excel, PowerPoint), desktop publishing (Adobe InDesign), image, video and sound editing (Adobe Photoshop, Adobe Premiere, Audacity), web design (Macromedia Dreamweaver, Microsoft FrontPage) and Pascal programming (Borland Pascal IDE).

Interests:
Listening to music (glam, sleaze, 80’s rock and metal), singing, playing a guitar, attending music events, reading fiction (fantasy and sci-fi), writing short stories, poems and reviews, photography, drawing, history, watching films, web sites, Japanese language and culture

Portfolio:
• http://nagini-chan.deviantart.com – a gallery with my photographs and other images,
• http://animanga.wz.cz – my own website about Japanese comics and animation (in Slovak language only),
• PDF files of a university student magazine KAIS - The Channel of Abnormally Initiative Students (in Slovak language only) where my name can be found under redaktori (editors) and grafická úprava (graphic design).


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So if you've got any idea what and where I should apply for a job, let me know! THANKS!!! <3

1. Put your iTunes, iPod, mp3 player, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write down the song name.


1: IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Sexual Addiction (Alleycat Scratch; OMFG LMAO WTF wuahahahaaaa!! XDDD)

2: HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Back for More (Ratt; haha, yeah I'll always come back for MOAAAAR!!! Anyway, I think if I had Billy Idol's Rebel Yell in the playlist, that'd be the one playing now... More, more, more! :D)

3: WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
All Night with the Lights On (Michael Monroe; and what's that supposed to mean? XD)

4: HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Fear of Getting Off (Heaven's Basement; I fear not getting a job... >,>)

5: WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Could This Be Magic (Van Halen; I'm trying to find magic? :D)

6: WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Shooting Star (Poison)

7: WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Foolin' (Def Leppard; lol, I'm just foolin' around...?)

8: WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Significant Other (Hardcore Superstar)

9: WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Dark Side (Crucified Barbara; I'm your father! O_O)

10: WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Sumthin' for Nothin' (Mötley Crüe)

11: WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Back on Trakk (CRASHDÏET)

12: WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Something Moved (Frehley's Comet; O_o?)

13: WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Nothin' to Lose (KISS; LMAO XDDD)

14: WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Sanibel Island (Enuff Z'nuff)

15: WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Comfort of the Devil (Dogs D'Amour; haha, yeah, the devil's back home sweethearts! ]:>)

16: WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Love Bites (Def Leppard; well, I DO bite but I don't think I'm love... |D)

17: WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Strutter (KISS; I don't want to become one!!)

18: WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Nothing New (Hanoi Rocks)

19: WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Sex (Shotgun Messiah; O_O Cassidy, where are you!??!?! ZOMG ROFL XDDD)

20: WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Take 'Em All Out (Hardcore Superstar; yeah, we all should go out together!!! ^_^)

That's the date when I came to London first time. I've been here for over a year now. If my memory serves me well, next time I'll try to post a summary of what happened in the past year.

London ROCKZ! :)

PURE RAWK AWARD WINNERS (BEST NEW BAND, BEST FRONT MAN -PEEP SHOW - BEGIN TOUR ON WEDNESDAY:

WED 25th : THE FLY - BARFLY - LONDON
THURS 26th : SEVEN - FORMALLY JUNKTION 7 - NOTTINGHAM
FRI 27th: ROCKERS - GLASGOW
SAT 28th: GASWORKS BAR - BRADFORD
SUN 29th - YARDBIRDS - GRIMSBY

Peep Show <3

www.myspace.com/peepshowroxx
www.myspace.com/drugdealercheerleader
www.mysapce.com/disarmmusic

Let's see what my present obession is::










See PEEP SHOW live!!!




How did I find Peep Show?

Since I'm totally into glam/sleaze/80s, I fell in love with one Swedish glam band last year. This one:


In my MyShit profile you can see their lead guitarist Martin Sweet:


While he was online once, I checked his profile and saw somebody REALLY INTERESTING in his top friends. Well, take a look yourself:


*hands over some bowl for drool* XD

And that person happens to be a singer of PEEP SHOW. :P That's the story. XD

Wow, I haven't been here in a while. A long while, I'd say.
So, the news for those who don't know.

- I moved to London.
- I'm not going to live in Slovakia, gods save me from that happening!
- I fuckin' LOVE CAMDEN TOWN!!! :D
- I'm planning to see as many bands performing live as possible, including Tigertailz, Hardcore Superstar and yes, of course.... X JAPAN! If they ever manage to COME to Europe and let us know sooner than 1 day AFTER the concert. (I'm sure they'd be capable of such an announcement.)
- Now I'm pissed off because I wanted to see a Scotish glam metal band called Peep Show in Barfly - The Fly on March 25th, but apparently the tickets have sold out in time when I had no idea about the existence of this band. I've known this band for.... 5 days? ^^; So yeah, bad luck. And it's their only London show in I don't know how long time.
- I'm going to see PEEP SHOW, fuck yeah!!!
- I'm madly in love with a Swedish glam metal band CRASHDÏET. They ROCK! Unfortunatelly no tour's on plan as they have no singer atm. Very bad luck with that. First singer committed suicide and the second one left the band about 8 months ago. 2 albums, no singer, no tour. :(
- When it comes to Peep Show, I got to know them via CRASHDÏET's lead guitarist Martin Sweet who has Peep Show's singer in his top friends on MyShit. The singer's so fuckin' hot that if I'd see him live, I'd drop dead right on the spot. *¬* (J/K)
- In the meantime I went from JRock loving person, to an almost glam rockstar looking girl. Because I LOVE GLAM & SLEAZE & 80's music!
- When it comes to the "umlaut bands", CRASHDÏET is not my only love. As I really found their music weird before, now I think they're fuckin' fantastic! Mötley Crüe ROCKZ!
- It's hard to keep track with all the great bands that are out there and that I listen to, thus when people ask what I listen to, I mention only few bands and then recommend them my last.fm profile. :DDD Oh, here it is: http://www.last.fm/user/nagini-chan
- Since I came to London, I've bought about 50 CDs and many DVDs... and quite some amount of books. :) I was supposed to save money for my studies, but fuck that! School can wait! I finally get to support the bands I like even if it's really just a small amount.
- I joined www.theglamnationnetwork.com and I still have no idea what it is about. XD Like a MyShit for glamrockers... but it looks nice there. ;)
- I'm going to buy an electric guitar this year finally for sure!
- And I'm prepared to get a tattoo, too. 8)
- I think of finding some vocal teacher because I still want to sing! <3
- I swear Johnny Gunn (the Peep Show singer) has AWESOME VOICE. O_O
- If you didn't know, SWEDISH glam/sleaze is probably the BEST THING ON EARTH! :D I obviously moved to wrong country. On the other hand, they don't have Johnny unlike the UK, hahaha! XP

There's a lot more to write about... This is a small sum up only. The rest is coming later. If i don't forget... ^^;

A MEET-UP!

Berlin
Saturday, February 14, 2009

Time and place yet undecided.
(Just like some of X JAPAN's gigs, lol... X'D)

Who's interested?
(I'm flying there from London... so don't let me down, please. :( )

If you have a chance, repost everywhere, let people know, etc, etc...!

WE ARE X!

*meow*

I wonder.... is anybody of my friends on LJ from Germany?

Except from you, Asu. XP

Or do you know somebody, who LOVE X JAPAN so much, that they'd come to Berlin for a fan meet-up on Valentine's Day, February 14 2009? ^.~

Because if you do, please, let them know!!!! I'm going to Germany and at least on X Freaks Forum we're planning to organize some meet-up on that Saturday. :3

WE ARE X!

Hi-ho!

WE ARE X!

Information about the upcoming meet-up:

WHERE:



Dominion Theatre
Tottenham Court Road Station
London

WHEN:

November 22, 2008
17:00 / 5 pm

WHY:

Week end! I'm at my wit's end!

~ the memorable day for those, who were planning to go to Paris and enjoy the now postponed X JAPAN concert

EVERYBODY'S WELCOME! ^_^x

WE ARE X!

Contact information:

Nage >> (MSN) animanga.resurrected@hotmail.com
>> (ICQ) 285672377
>> (e-mail) nagini.drake@gmail.com

Who could come to a meet up on 22nd November to London, UK?

Place and time yet not decided.

WE ARE X!

Thousands kilometres... through sea and mountains. There's somebody sleeping now. Well, there are quite few people sleeping here and there at the moment...

At the end of the day
You simply forget my name
And as sad as it seems
You remain in my dreams

'Everything happens for some reason.'
'I've heard that before. Higher reason, yeah, sure... Fucking awesome.'
'I know you don't remember any good reason for bad things happening in the past. You tend to remember only the worst part of all and forget what good came afterwards.'
'Exactly! It's all just my fucked up memory... It's not about the FACT that there was nothing good at all!'
'How long are you going to be angry with me?'
'You?'
'Ok, then not me, but maybe Shukumei?'
'I...'
'You were angry with so many people at the same time that you forgot about him completely, didn't you?'
I frowned. What else could I do? 'So shall I blame him and only him for this crap?'
'Maybe you should blame yourself for a change.'
'Yeah, it's all my hopes, wishes and dreams that destroyed it all. I better be burnt to death.' I pulled a safety blade from a pocket. 'Sayonara?'
He turned around and looked down from the rooftop. 'How 'bout one last flight? I think it'd be more exciting than cutting your wrist.'
He always had a rather freaky sense of humor. On the other hand, I have to admit flying from 36th floor would be really a once-in-a-life-time-experience. Thus I laughed bitterly and walked to the edge.
He touched my arm, 'You're not going to try it now.'
'Why not?'
'There are still some dreams to be shattered. More pain to be done to you. They won't let you go scarless.'
'Scarless?' I started laughing like a lunatic. 'Scarless?!?!?!!!??? Are you kidding me?'
'Mentally, not physically.'
'I got it. What a surprise...'
'Well, you're not going to jump so... whatever.'
'They took my bravery. Strength. They took... many things and made me forget. They let me get drowned in a mud but always keep me just above the surface so I can take another breath, hoping for it to be the last one. I can't live, yet they won't let me die.'
'Not even today, sweetheart. And not tomorrow either. It's still a long long journey.'
'The end is the same for everyone. What's the point in continuing? Don't they have better things to do than torturing me?'
He turned me to face him. I thought he'd just hug me. Instead I got a long kiss. Have you ever expected to kiss an older brother of Fate itself?
'Even you,' I gasped. It was less than a second... and all my worries were gone. My mind was left blank again. There was pain, there was fear, there was... hope. Foolish hope for good times. For they have to come now! Oh, please...

With new hope came new wishes and dreams. All they needed to feed on. A few years after the kiss she commited a suicide. Cut her wrists. Jumping from a rooftop would be too brave.

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Yeah, life's great...

[sarcasm] Life's never been better... [/sarcasm]

Pics only~

I took pictures because we finally got 2 new single beds instead of the 2 double beds we had before. ^_^v

Yay, yay, yay! ^_^ I was there today.. with Jan from MySpace, her daughter and their friends.

www.londonexpo.com

Pictures later... :P

...after I take a shower. XD

*is hugging Chazzy (a teddy bear) tightly while crying*

I want to go hooooooooooome!!!!!!!!!

T_T

...why my German is nonexistent now! Simply because I was doing everything else but paying attention to the teacher... xD


Why to study when you can draw during a lesson? :D


"To go, or not to go: that is the question: Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to attend the swordfighting lesson, or sit at the PC?" - Encircle the right answer!
(The PC one, obviously... xD)


Note the right corner... >.> (and the mistakes.. xD)